Sunday, November 30, 2008


This week was nice. I went home to Mississippi and spent a few days with family and friends. I honestly think one of my favorite things is to get to go home. Spending time with family is something that can't be replaced, no matter how crazy they may be! We ate a lot and watched a lot of football!! Ole Miss beat the mess out of MS State!! Can't really think of a better way to spend the week! I did go shopping on friday. We didn't wake up real early but it was early enough to think I might not ever do it again!! It was so much crazier than last year. It just put me in a bad mood more than anything!!! People were so rude and crazy about sales. I was kind of in disbelief about the whole situation. It is kind of sad that this is really what Christmas is about now. I am not going to get on a soapbox about missing the meaning but it was truly eye opening yesterday. Everyone knows the meaning is lost but I saw it first hand yesterday.

I do love the holiday season though. Everyone seems to be a little happier. (excluding Black Friday) I love the lights, music, and family time. I know I take it for granted so often but I have been truly blessed. I had a long talk on the way back to the house last night with my aunt about this very thing. I haven't really experienced great tragedy. My parents are still together and love each other very much. I have amazing siblings and even more amazing friends. I was lucky enough to be raised in a home where God was the focus. God has really blessed my life and its hard to find the reasons why He does it. My aunt said she was given some great advice from her pastor's wife when she married my uncle. (who is a pastor) She told my aunt that the good times in ministry will far out weigh the bad. I think that applies to my life. Crappy things have happened but I have had some pretty great times. Its easy to get wrapped up in the drama of life and take for granted all the blessings. So, my goal is to focus more on the blessings of life and try to forget all the craziness. I hope everyone is doing well!! love y'all!


Thursday, November 13, 2008

Fresh Start

So, its almost 6 am here and this is kind of the story of my life right now!! I sleep at random times and currently do not do a lot of it! I really tried to keep this updated this summer but as the days got busier this thing was forgotten! So, here is to new beginnings. Which kind of symbolizes where I am right now. This is the beginning of life after college. Its was kind of a strange feeling to not go back to school this past August. I think school pretty much defines our life for so long and then its over. Its such a weird transition. I feel like this could be hardest time to find some sort of balance between becoming an adult and not really feeling like I am one.

Turning 25 was supposed to be a big deal I guess but I don't feel any different. I don't feel like I thought I would. I remember my siblings turning 25 and thinking how mature they were and so "adult" but I don't feel that. Its kind of funny to think about being 13 or 14 and thinking about how life would be at 25. According to the teenage version of me, I would have been married and probably had kids by now. WOW!! What the heck was I thinking? I am nowhere near ready to have a family. I feel like there is so much to do and explore. I don't want to have any regrets. I have the rest of my life to be married and I am excited for that season of my life but not ready for it.

Its also been a weird transition because I have no idea what the heck I am supposed to be doing right now!! I have all these ideas and dreams that I want to accomplish. I think that is why I don't sleep a lot. My mind is running like a crazy person! I hope and pray that I can follow through with them all. I would love to start planning for my non profit soon. I just need some people to buy into the idea and when I say "buy" into it, I mean...I need your money! :) So, for all two of that might read this, if you have any extra cash laying around or happen to win the lottery and don't know what to do with it...Look a girl up!! I know God will take care of it. I just have to trust and be patient. Patience is such a dreaded word to me! God likes to do things His way and I guess that is okay but sometimes I feel like I could really help Him out!! Okay, I am done for now. Hopefully, I can become a true blogger and keep this thing updated.

love y'all, Breanne